On the 1st day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “This bites, you’ll have no legacy”.
On the 2nd day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “What did I do wrong”
On the 3rd day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “I have empty arms”
On the 4th day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “I will die alone”
On the 5th day of Childlessness,
my inner voice reminded me
“FIVE PREGNANT HIGH SCHOOL GIRLSSSSSSSSS”
On the 6th day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “People treat me different”
On the 7th day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “I’ll never have a baby”
On the 8th day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “I’m embarrassed that I’m broken”
On the 9th day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “My family is small, its my fault”
On the 10th day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “Am I a real woman?”
On the 11th day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “Don’t look at me with pity”
On the 12th day of Childlessness, my inner voice said to me “Will I be remembered?”, “Don’t look at me with pity”, “Am I a real woman?”, “My family is small, its my fault” “I’m embarrassed that I’m broken”, “I’ll never have a baby”, “People treat me different”, “FIVE PREGNANT HIGH SCHOOL GIRLSSSSSSSSS”, “I will die alone”, “I have empty arms”, “What did I do wrong” and “This bites, you’ll have no legacy”.
12 days of Infertility
To me, someone who is infertile has been unable to conceive a child but is still TTC (trying to conceive) and is hopeful that it will happen.
On the 1st day of Infertility, my family asked of me “Are you pregnant? We want to see a ba-by”
On the 2nd day of Infertility, my coworkers asked of me “Have you seen a doctor?”
On the 3rd day of Infertility, my dry cleaner said to me “Stop trying it will happen”
On the 4th day of Infertility, my neighbor said to me “Adoption is an option”
On the 5th day of Infertility, my doctor said to me
“FIVE CLOMID DAYSSSSSSSSSSSSS”
On the 6th day of Infertility, my pharm tech said to me “You need to try harder”
On the 7th day of Infertility, my lady at the drive through said to me “If its meant to be you’ll have one”
On the 8th day of Infertility, my mailman said to me “Hurry, you’re getting older”
On the 9th day of Infertility, my waitress said to me “Is it you who has the problem?”
On the 10th day of Infertility, my dentist said to me “IVF could fix this”
On the 11th day of Infertility, my nail tech said to me “Why can’t you get pregnant”?
On the 12th day of Infertility, my doctor said to me “This will never happen”, “Why can’t you get pregnant”?, “IVF could fix this”, “Is it you who has the problem?”, “Hurry, you’re getting older”, “If its meant to be you’ll have one”, “You need to try harder”, “FIVE CLOMID DAYSSSSSSSSS”, “Adoption is an option”, “Stop trying it will happen”, “Have you seen a doctor?”, “Are you pregnant? We want to see a ba-by”
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This started to be a tongue in cheek blog post…but as I wrote I started remembering the unsolicited (i.e. unwelcome/unwanted/not helpful) advice I had received over the years. Add that advice to me already beating myself up and it was a constant barrage of negativity….like a partridge jumping out of the pear tree to peck the childless to death.
Others dream of visions of sugar plums dancing in their head. We dream of a child.
Others think a Silent Night is a good thing. We think its another night without hearing a cooing baby.
All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth. Nope…………………………
We heard him exclaim as he drove out of sight. Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.
